Why did it take so long for another person to recognize his loveliness (despite the grime and missing fur, the sunken eyes, and the nonstop drooling; the frightening countenance he couldn't help)?
Five and one-half months passed so quickly. Too quickly.
Over time, Booker and I developed a love and companionship, and he became my shadow. If I left a room, he followed immediately. We talked and shared chairs, and he would ask to be held from time to time! He loved my stitching, and anticipated those hours in the day when I would sit and stitch, and he would watch excitedly as the needle would rise and fall, dragging the tempting string through the material. Oh, how he trembled at the thought of catching the threads and silk pieces, and every once in a great while would leave his comfy corner of the bed to climb onto a small perch on the chair just to be closer to the action! His silly joy with being given a go at my threads brings a smile to my aching heart.
Book wasn't to be here as long as we anticipated. A small lump was detected on his lower jaw, which grew quickly through the late summer. He was taken in for dental work in August and the x-rays showed the mass was actually an out of control, inoperable cancer. The doctor was very kind and asked how we wanted to proceed.
We spoke of letting him return home with doses of heavy medication to keep him comfortable for a number of weeks, but that would only give us time to say goodbye - it would not be the decent thing to do to Booker. The other choice was to have them end the procedure and put him down while he was still groggy. Neither option was ideal, and to choose between the only two presented was heartbreaking.
Well, from here you know the rest of the story. I suppose this is why/how I lost my stitching mojo, and why I am not feeling capable of producing any handwork at present. Perhaps soon the fog will lift, but until that happens I am surviving only on getting up each day and just going back and forth to work, looking for opportunities for Karl to find employment, and performing the least of the mundane daily routine items. Well, mundane, save for one additional little occupant in the house.
We have a new friend for Odin, who was most sorely missing Booker. Book's departure left Odin lost and confused; spending hours every day crying out for his big buddy, endlessly searching the house from one end to the other. Karl couldn't think on replacing Book, and would not entertain looking at faces online to find another needy prospect to fill out our family, so one weekend I took matters into my own hands, and that is how Simon came to be. He is helping to replace some of the grief with his silly antics, but everything about this is going to take time. More on our new family member another time.
See you on the other side.




